I’m sure there’s a rule against this but I’m going to do it anyway. I’m going to talk about walking away from blogging. I’m going to go there.
Blogging and I have a Love/Hate relationship.
Writing: I’ve been blogging for 2 1/2 years and I love being able to share my thoughts, my ideas and the things I’m learning.
Community: I love building community, I ADORE all of the amazing woman I’ve met because of blogging. In love the challenges, the link-ups, the giveaways, the humanitarian efforts and the Twitter Parties! I love the companies that I get to work with – they are amazing and generous!
Creativity: Blogging pushes me to be creative, it gets me out of my box and forces me to open up. For a stay-at-home mom, blogging is a “social-life” too. When I’m tied down to my house because of naps, potty training and bad weather I know I have my blogging girls!
Support: I love feeling important. Yes, blogging makes me feel important – just being honest. I don’t know about you but knowing that I have X amount of people stopping in to read what I have to say each day amazes me. It makes me very proud and also makes me feel supported. I know when I’m having a bad day I have a huge pile of “online” friends who are praying for me.
The Distorted Blog Mirror:
When I look in the “mirror” and take a good hard look at my blog, my mirror is distorted. Instead of just seeing my blog for what it’s worth I see the other’s. I see the Mega-blogs, the UBER inspiring blogs, the Cheerleader-popular blogs and the Just-Started-Last-Year-Now-More-Popular-Than-Bacon Blog. You know the one’s!
Then I begin to question everything… If only my blog… If only I could… If I wrote better … If my photos were edited like…If I wrote an ebook… got featured on this site or that site… If ONLY…
Dreams for a bigger blog:
I read every, “how to grow your blog” post. I subscribe to ProBlogger, watch the youtube videos and I would attend every conference if given the chance. I obsess over my stats and stalk my Google Analytics. I have 2 readers in Greenland – whoopie! But it’s never a big enough number. Sometimes I feel like I’m writing to a crowd of none. I know it’s not true but discontentment sneaks in.
Write more. Be consistent. Don’t let your readers down. Yes, this is very good advice and true. But man, it stresses me out! The guilt for not writing a post for a few days makes me feel like a bad blogger. SO I’m going to give it up. I’m going to write when I have something to say. I’m not going to feel guilty for not writing a post for an entire week. I hope you understand.
The comparison Game: Regardless of my best efforts I have not been able to keep my blogging blinders up. I see the gorgeously laid out blog next door, the creative design, the flawless sidebars with a dozen obviously paying sponsors. I begin to question why I’m doing this at all. My blog doesn’t measure up.
No other bloggers feel this way, right? So I should just shut down, close up shop and move on with my life. The HATE side of blogging makes me want to quit. Often.
Well, it’s not gonna happen. Nope. Not yet anyways. But it might, someday, because blogging is just a thing I do it is not who I am. I need to try to keep that in perspective. Yes, I want to be successful. I want to be successful in everything that I do. That’s just my personality. I also want to write great content, offer my readers ideas and inspiration that will encourage them. I want companies to know that I’m awesome to work with and I’ll be their biggest cheerleader. I want to succeed. But I don’t want to lose sight of reality.
So friends, readers, fellow bloggers ( & the unfortunate person who was just looking for a pumpkin whoopie pie recipe). What do you think of all of this? If you are a blogger how are you feeling? How many times a week do you just want to close up shop? Am I just crazy? PS. I love you all!
Disclosure: This post was written in about 5 minutes. I can not guarantee top notch editing. Please pardon the typos! 🙂